IDIOT PROMOTED TO RETARD!

I'm blogging! I know I just did a few hours ago. I've been admiring my new banner and haven't slept. Neighbour is here to continue installing electrical switch box. It took him one week to come to finish up only the switch box. I don't know how long to wait before he come again to run the wires to my mother's room for the power point for aircon. Haiz...

I had another damn bloody fucking pissful morning today!! Met him after his work for breakfast. I was expecting a short and quiet breakfast, just the two of us. I wore hot pants. Reached there and saw Vincent and I anticipated that he most probably invited him and Raymond along. Zzz... I'm not anti-social. I only wish to have quiet time together to chat about anything with each other. When friends join us, they most probably discussing about soccer again. True enough he invited them along. Fine! Can I ask them not to follow us? Zzz...

Then he asked me where I want to eat. Fucking good question!! Nowadays his workplace close at 5AM. What a fuck up timing!! Stalls that open till late already closing or even closed. Stalls that open morning probably still preparing and not ready for business. Thinkging where to eat makes me very frustrated! Reminds me of how we always have to go out at the time where many things are not available!!! Like how he meet me on normal evening at 8.45PM where shops and restaurants are about to close, so eat or shop first? Like how he come out 12AM on his off days and we have 6 hours of free time no where to spend. Then now in the stupid morning where the places I want to eat are either closed or not yet opened!!! Zzz...

He suggested prawn noodles. One which he been with some customers on a few ocassion and he highly recommended me. Last few weeks we been there. The taste was ok only. I don't want to go because I don't fancy prawn noodles and the whole fucking coffeeshop only have that stall opened at that timing. Then he suggesting curry rice at Beo Crescent. Even though I haven't sleep, I don't really felt like eating heavy foodso early in the morning but I didn't reject the idea, I was still thinking of other places. I was in a really foul mood already. He walked away and discussed with the rest and told them to meet at the curry rice. Came back to me and ask me ok or not. Zzz... I didn't say anything other than told him to get in the car and stop wasting time! I was so irritated by him. He already told people to meet there, still ask me such a stupid question for fuck!

I started the car and drove off. Inside the car he was still irritating me. Kept asking me, "curry rice 你吞得下吗?你不喜欢就换咯...你要吃别的可以改的...虾面你不适合就换咯.." Read that I am narrating the EXACT words he use. Why a simple question like "你想吃curry rice吗?" he has to phrase it to "curry rice 你吞得下吗?" and ask in a not very nice manner!!? Fucking XIA LAN attitude!!! AND HE KEPT ON REPEATING THE SAME THING WHEN I WAS ALREADY DRIVING AND OBVIOUSLY HEADING FOR CURRY RICE. Damn fucking pissed! I told him to stop talking since we are already on the way and because he is annoying me. He rebuked and continued with the same stuffs. I stopped him again, he continued instantly again!! After a few times I had to use the word "shut up"! He continued still!!! After another few attempt to shut him, I had to SCREAM AT HIM "JUST SHUT UP AND STOP THIS DAMN THING!! SHUT UP YOU UNDERSTAND?!"!!! Screamed a few times he still persist and finally screamed back KNNBCCB!!! LOOK AT THIS FUCKING IDIOT!!!

Then he accused me of being unreasonable and ridiculous, easily getting mad when he "ONLY" repeat things "ONE OR TWO TIMES" more!!! His exact words, "我问多一两次你就发神经!" Which he really always insist he ONLY said ONCE or TWICE!!! WHAT THE FUCK?! Where got 一两次?!? I asked if he know how to count or not?! The fucking problem is IF I DON'T GET MAD, HE WON'T EVEN STOP!!! Many instances like asking what I am doing again and again within a few minutes for a whole phone call. Ask me hungry or not again and again within a few minutes for a whole phone call. Offer me something which I don't want, again and again even after I obviously got pissed he still trying!! HE JUST FUCKING DON'T TAKE PEOPLE'S ANSWER AS AN ANSWER!!! WHEN HE TOTALLY PISSED ME WITH HIS NONSENSE, HE ARGUE WITH HIS TWISTED FACTS!! CHAO CHEE BYE!! Just want to create unhappiness everyday!!! FUCKING RETARD!

The other day over the phone he was asking what I was doing AGAIN! I told him he wouldn't know or understand what I do, shall show him the next time he come my house. Which he spent the next 10 minutes of phonecall keep on trying to bicker about this topic... "You don't tell me how I know?... You can say wat!... Ask you but you don't want to say... You can explain to me over the phone wat..." And he went on and on until I got pissed!!

Whenever he come me house, I try to show him the things I do at home at my computer. He always NOT interested to see!! When I seriously trying to share something with him, he would be playing with Mimi, checking his phone or start to hug and touch me. I get damn mad for the kind of disrespect he show when I am trying to let him know more about me and he don't seems to be interested. I usually get very turned off because of him not paying attention to my concern of showing him things, so I will push him away when he touch me. When I get pissed saying he always end up want to get intimate, he has his 1001 reasons and excuses saying he just want to company me and be close to me, not necessarily want to make love.

How the fuck can hugging and touching sensitive part of the body not ending up making love?! If I don't push him away, it's like giving silent consent to proceed with intercourse wat!!! You mean just hug, then request to take off clothes and touch then call it a day?! I was expecting jus a normal hug around waist while I show him the stuffs I do. His hands just creep here and there and start to turn his face to my ears, how is he concentrating the things I was showing him?! I get very mad and stopped him from touching me and made it very clear BECAUSE he wasn't concentrating on what I want to show him. For this, he knn accuse me of acting class not letting him touch!! HE ALWAYS TAKE THINGS OUT OF CONTEXT!!! I always make my reason very clear but he always skip some parts of what I said and totally changed the meaning and accuse me of something else!! I don't know he is being unreasonable or REAL FUCKING STUPID to understand what I say!! Everytime he would end up argueing with me. Say if I no mood to make love, can always reject him. THAT'S WHAT I DID! People push you away you don't fucking take it as a hint or answer?!? Pushed his hand away from the sensitive part but just enjoy a good hug. Slowly his hand will creep there again. Verbally tell him he say ok, but after few minutes the hands come again. I have to push away many times and get really annoyed but he still don't get it. Finally get pissed and he start to argue with me saying I can kindly reject, don't have to get mad. JUST LOOK AT THIS CB RETARD!! WHEN PEOPLE STOP HIM KINDLY, HE JUST WON'T LISTEN!!! HE JUST HAVE TO FORCE PEOPLE TO GET FUCKING PISS AND SCREAM AT HIM!!!

Anyway, I got damn fucking mad just now I stopped the car by the road. Vincent's car passed us. Raymond called him on the phone to check on us while we were quarreling. He fucking pick up the call without talking. Showed it to me purposely and challenged me to continue. CHAO CHEE BYE! Why not?! What's the fucking big deal about Raymond overhearing??! With Raymond on the line, he talk even more xia lan!! Phrased his sentences as if purposely meant to let Raymond hear. After a while Raymond hung up. We didn't go to eat in the end. I was damn mad and screaming at him. If he shut up earlier, we would just go eat according to plan!!! The reason that really pissed me was the repetition of all these nonsense EVERYDAY! He always have to repeat some things everyday to annoy me and follow by argueing and accusing me of creating problems!!!!

Wasted few hours quarrelling. I know I can just drop the subject and stop the arguement, but I really cannot stand it I had to get even. I can't stand it when he everyday come and start this kind of nonsense. It's EVERYDAY!!! EVERYDAY want to bicker and piss me off!! I won't let him off easily by just letting the matter rest. I MAKE SURE HE MUST COMPENSATE FOR IT! REALISE HIS FUCKING RETARD BEHAVIOUR AND SAY SOMETHING TO COOL ME OFF. I am NO LONGER interested to hear "sorry". EVERY quarrel will end up with him saying sorry. You may think I am unreasonable since he is the one who apologise everytime. BUT the apology didn't come immediately!!! I had to scream and lecture him for hours!! Which he would argue but end up saying sorry in a very disingenuous way - pushing every fault to himself. "全部都是我的错啦..今天我叫你出来是我的错..你不喜欢吃虾面是我的错..." Rubbish kind of apology!!

Apologies then follow by empty promises saying he won't argue again, will talk to me nicely in future, will not talk nonsense, will not repeat nonsense to annoy me, will be nice even I get angry. ALL THESE BULLSHIT he already promised many times. These are just THOUGHTLESS promises!!! How often can one remain nice when someone is throwing temper at you?! How can one never argue back in his life?! I TOTALLY DON'T BUY ALL THESE MEANINGLESS PROMISES. I only expect him to stop his nonsense of evaluating small topics non stop and piss me off!!! The way and things he promised me just tell me he won't be able to fulfill at all!! True enough, he ALWAYS break them in the next few minutes by starting to argue again. SO WHY DON'T I DESERVE THE APOLOGY EVERYTIME?!