I'm Back!... Again...

Back from hiatus again and I don't know where to start. Seems like I'll always remember to come back blogging around this time of the year, albeit after CNY this time. No rantings from me about spring cleaning and stuffs. This year I did cleaning way before. Actually it was not done by me... Hehe...

2014 was very kind to me. Good progress in work. Not that I got promoted. Still a flower girl but I have more control of things at work. Made good money of course!! Debt free now!! With extra cash to do the things that I always wanted to do.

Last April our club moved to a new place. Business got better and for many months I was the only flower girl so I got all the sales to myself. Had a bunch of new colleagues and a special one call Nick. Treats me really nice. Take care of me and help me a lot. Nick is a she. She is a butch. We are really close now, but I'm really not a lesbian. I enjoy her taking care of me and pamper me. Oh she did spring cleaning for me. I think I'm very bad for not feeling bad for taking advantage of her.. LOL.. =X

I had one regret last year. I missed my favourite 子华's show!! Damn! I booked the best tickets to the show months before but couldn't go on leave because I was the only flower girl. Argh!!! Got money no time!!!

Now... Got money so I make time for the things I want to do - liposuction!!! Been thinking about it even before last year and finally went for it. Just came back from Medan and I'm on the 5th day of recovery. I want to blog about this on my Tumblr. =D

Long Time No Blog!!!

Almost a year since I last wrote something here and I wonder if anyone still reading, but I will still update once in a while. In fact, I don't really know what to write because my life is usually not interesting. It's all about woes at work and slacking at home.

It's a new year again. No resolution as usual. I just hope to continue earn as much or even more to clear my debts and do the things I like. I'm still at the same job and it's been a year already. It was quite a struggle in the beginning trying to compete with the other girl for more sales. Initially I dreaded working with her and was hoping she would resign or get asked to leave, but over the time I've learned to get used to working with her. Not that I began to like her, I just learned not to get affected by her. Recently came the news that she has tendered her resignation and her last day would be 15th Feb. What?! Finally?! I'm actually not as excited as I sound because I'm already used to all of her nonsense, so I'm fine to continue work with her. But the thought of working alone, having all the sales to myself and earning more does makes me feel happy. Of course, the company is definitely going to hire a new girl because I can't be working everyday without going on off and leave. At least, I have more advantage over the new girl in future. Lol... =X

There's also few other things that I'm looking forward this year. First, I'm going to serve my last installment of a personal bank loan this August. Finally one less bill to pay every month! Secondly, 子华 is going to have his new standup comedy this year end. I should start saving for the trip!! Lastly, I'm contemplating to go for liposuction. Lol... I'm not joking about this. Even during my slim days, I had buldging thighs and arms. Not to mention that I have put on much weight over the past 2 years!! Yes, I'm lazy to exercise... But even if I do, I would still want to sculpt my thighs and arms which exercise can't get rid of. Anyway this wish is going to take some time before it can come true, because I haven't even start saving for it. =D

CNY is just one week away. I don't know if I should be looking forward to it. Haven't buy any new clothes. Haven't clean up my room!! OMG!! Not again!!

Fuck My Life

This March not a very good month. Mum was in hospital and I took a lot of leaves from work. Even that, I actually didn't care much about her. I'm so bad. Because of all the leaves, my income this month is miserable. And also too many days away from work, makes me don't feel like going to work even more. On top of that, I shopped quite many bit.. Zzz....

To make things worse, I made a heroic but stupid decision to help Alycia. She gotten into some trouble and I emptied my bank and even borrowed from a few friends to help her because she promised she would return in a few days time when her other funds come in. I foresee delays. Yet I chose to help and land myself in a miserable state.

To make things even worse, I realised I urgently needed to change my tyres. The tyres were long due for change, but I kept delaying until I realised an uneven wear out on one of the tyre which I bumped some time ago. The rubber wore off totally on some parts and the thread can be seen underneath. Left with $1.08 in my bank, I had to use my credit card to go for the tyre change

To make things more than even worse, my car becomes bouncy after the tyres change. After a check at the workshop, I was told that the suspensions need replacement. Probably damaged from changing the tyres. It sometimes happen to old cars. Kaoz... It would cost about $1000. I'm going to KIV this and bear with the bouncing car.

To make things much more than even worse, I fell down 2 days ago. Fell front and landed on my knees with a big orr cheh. I used my hands as well.... And I was holding my phone. Later which I realised the screen was smashed. My iphone 5!!!!! It'd cost about $350 to replace the screen!!!!

Nbcb!

Hello...

Again, it's been quite some time I last blogged. I even failed my promise to update the Project365... In real life, where got everyday so interesting wah lau!!! - True story... Lol..

Almost 3 months into the new job and it has been confirmed that I am not going back to the previous one. No more worries about paying bills as income is doubled and less expenses involved at work - only fueled my car once every 2 to 3 weeks and no need for day license to drive the car. That's about $600 of savings a month!! I could use it for some shopping... =X

When I had little income, I stressed over making ends meet. Not enough money for clearing all the bills every month and I didn't care much about other debts because I couldn't afford at all. Now that I earn more, I don't have to worry about the bills and I can start to manage my debts. Sometimes I have this irresponsible thinking of not clearing my debts because I could use the money to enjoy myself!! Lol... No no!! That's just a thought!! I am now stressing myself to clear my debts fast, but at the same time I'm also saving a lot. In fact, the rate of my saving is higher than clearing debts. I have to do this because I don't know how long more I can continue to earn this amount of income. I need to save for rainy days.
From records (yes.. I'm keeping an account of my finance), I've been spending about $400 to $500 a month on cigarettes and misc, $100 to $300 for dining out, $100 to $300 on necessities and household stuffs. The total is quite high a personal expense but I hadn't really spend on "shopping". I really need some new clothes and shoes for work. Looking at here if I quit smoking, I could have 2 new sets of clothes each month or maybe clear my debts faster. But sorry to all my debtors, I can't quit smoking yet!! Lol...

Work hasn't been too hard. Reached home from work about 5AM, sometimes later due to play and breakfast. I'm still lazy as usual. Room is messy than hell. I didn't tidy, not even for the CNY!! Recently I had some kind of insomnia (well... I always had) that no matter how tired I am, I would sleep for 1 to 2 hours and wake up not able to get to sleep again - not until when it's time for work! Crap!!

The doctor has reviewed my mum's condition after 3 sessions of chemo. Result was good as most of the cancer in the liver has gone. It's now suitable for the surgery to remove the rest of the cancer and it's scheduled on 5th March. I am a lousy daughter as I didn't really care much about her during these time. Everyday I wake up I'd laze in the room until time to go work, after work I come home and sleep... I hope she really gets well after this liver surgery.

Haiz...

4th day at the new job already and I'm having "that" kind of feeling ever since the first day. "That" I mean dreading to go work!! Work start at 10pm and I would set alarm way early so I can take my time to prepare slowly, but actual fact is I always drag to the latest possible time to start preparing. Before I even start preparing, I would think of all kind of lies that I can use to excuse myself from work or at least report work later. Of course I didn't really do it. Haiz... PI work is tough. Though irregular, long hours, under the hot sun and in the rain, but I never dreaded as much as this job. The only encouragement that I have from this job is the possibility of earning more.

This new job is kind of competitive. When I was working for two days part time last month, the commission was calculated base on the total sales by my colleague and me. Then I started fulltime and I was told I'd be on my own. Zzz... I don't quite like the idea of individual sales because it's unfair for me when a lot of customers, especially the big spenders, would buy from the other girl because they already know her well. On the other hand I also understand that she would feel unfair if the commission is shared, since she always sells more than me. Reason for the company to do this because they want both of us to strive instead of taking turns to skive, thinking that the commission is shared. A little consolation that I just got to know yesterday - commission is 2% instead of 1%!! One out of a hundred is very insignificant, but two compared to one means two times!!!

I always think it is essential to maintain good relationship with colleagues, but I think its not exactly easy over here. Although I'm very poor now, I'm not the kind of person who would fuss over small amount of money. Which means I would choose harmonious over money, but others do not. Zzz... It's not like we have to fight for customers, but we need to act faster than each other. This is bad enough... The flower rings value in $20, $50, $100, $200, $500 and $1000. 2% commission is between $0.40 to $20, most often $0.40 to $1 because most customer would buy between $20 to $100 each time. Must I always act faster and be that kiasu to earn that $0.40 to $1??? If I don't, I'll earn nuts!! If I do, it will create tension between us. There's already unhappiness in me now because she is kinda doing it to me though she still treat me very friendly, of course she's the one smiling, because she's selling more than me!!!

I don't blame her totally. Why do I want to sell flowers since I kind of feel the job is degrading? Maybe she doesn't feel that way but I do!! I think it's degrading because I'm not a high school fall out or whatever, I have brains and I can find better job. But better job title doesn't give better pay, that's why I tried to part time at the pub and now I'm here!! She's also here for the same reason - make money!! Nothing wrong to be kiasu for her to rush for every $0.40 to $1. It actually adds up to quite a lot at the end of the night. I received $259 for that two days of part time!!

Luck also plays quite a big part. Today, I had quite bad luck. Customers who rejected my sale bought from her after I walked off less than 30 seconds. At times this happened because those customers know her better so did not buy from me purposely. But today it happened just because I didn't approach them the right time.. WTF?! Grrr... Today I did about 3k sales. She did 7k!!! Zzzz..... Anyway I just hope I'd be able to bring home at least 2.8k for this month, prove it worth for me to switch to this job. Then work on pulling my sales figure close to her, that way I should see around 5k of income each month!!!

By the way, I started another blog on Tumblr. Lol.. It's meant to be a bucket list. Not the usual kinds of "100 things I want to do before I die", but a list of all the things I want. From the little things I want to do or buy, places that I want to go and other wishes. My life list!! =)

Flower Girl...

Tired.... Just back from first day work at new place. Hmm... Not officially first day - just part time. But I'm going to start work there fulltime in December. I've recently decided to switch my job. Trying out for maybe two months. As the title says... I'm gonna sell flower... At a club...

Not something that I like doing. In fact I feel kind of degrading, but as long as it brings in more income I'm going to bear with it. The income from day job is totally not enough for me, worse when I need to work irregular hours and not able to part time at the pub. If selling flowers is going to earn as much as the day job, at least I don't have to pay for high petrol, don't have to pay $20 to drive out my off peak car and its fixed 6 hours work - 10pm to 4am. This way I can still find another part time in the day, which I have to because I need two jobs to sustain. =(

Mum's medical report was 3rd stage cancer. Though the affected area had been totally removed with the surgery, but she needs to go though chemo. With the new job, I would be free in the day to send her to hospital. I can use the time to go take a taxi and bike license! Hehehe... Would come in useful if I go back to my PI job.. Lol...

A lot of debts to clear... A lot of bills to pay... A lot of things on wish list... Missing Hong Kong a lot... Work hard and look out for new opportunities!!

Grrrrr.....

I'm here because of the damn Facebook. Photos from many of my previous blog post are not showing here because Facebook changed the direct link. I started linking photos from my Facebook instead of uploading to Blogger to save storage on Picasa. Can't trust Facebook.. Zzzz.... Although it's not important but I'm trying to upload all of them one by one.. Sickening... Sometimes I'm a perfectionist... Sometimes only.. Hehe...

Mum is discharged. I kinda hate it. She came back home grumpy.. Started kpkb over all the little things. Fuck up!!! I swear I'm willing to do all the necessary things for her, even clean after her shit or anything. I'll do those kind of things without complain but NOT entertaining her kpkb over the tiny things like washing cups. I mean those clean ones not in used. She has the habit of washing them every morning. Come one!! If you are so bothered about them collecting dust, you should wash them every hour really! Zzz... And she even kpkb over the way I wash them. So wtf?! Then boiling water... Omfg... I drink from the tap without boiling!! Why is she so particular over these little things. I mean... Don't have to kpkb over it!! Oh and also kpkb me for bringing my meal into my room to eat. WTF?! I've been doing it for years!!!

Nagging is irritating, but she is not! She really KPKB and pissed me off!! Even my father is getting pissed. She thinks that we are unwilling to help her and if not for her feeling unwell, she wouldn't have to see our face to ask for help. The problem is - we are not expecting her to beg us!! Can't she just talk properly instead of KPKB?! Kaoz!!!

Gonna go continue to fix the photos.. Sibeh sianz....