S i a n z z z ....

Yes yes yes!! My life is this fucking sianz!! Zzzz...

Last week red at punting! From win $1k become lose $1.2k.. Zzz.. Lucky Sunday covered back.. I broke my streaks of 9 weeks blue.. Sad... But it's ok.. only -$130.. Last night already covered all profits! =)

Can't believe I was actually practising my piano just now.. Zzz.. Nicholas lah! Made me felt like learning some songs.. But I gave up after a while.. Only learned a few bars.. =x Haha... Weather very hot lah.. Sweating all over don't have the patience... But I will definitely learn this piece of music and upload the video of me playing it on Youtube! (But just dunno when lor..) xD

These 2 days been thinking of making a new skin for my blog. Since I bought a new monitor so I want something to fit MY screen.. And also fit other screen lor.. Studied very long, roughly have an idea of how to do the codings.. But the problem is I haven't even think of a theme and design.. Zzz.. Still thinking....

Today is Tuesday again.. Sianz.. Last night he asked me where we shall go tonight... Aiyo.. Cannot think of anything.. It's the eng chai thing again.. Zzzz... He said tonight's moon should be very nice, we can go see moon.. Wtf?! I can see from my room's window lah!!

SIANZ!!!!!!!!!!

Moody Morning...

Sibeh sianz!! Slept the whole night.. Hanzi was off last night.. He not feeling well..

Wanted to blog just now, but suddenly the sky got so dark and started raining.. Dampened my mood.. Zzz.. I hate rainy days!!

Friday evening he was supposed to come out EARLY!! Yes he did come out early.. In fact quite early.. But I almost overslept a little because I didn't sleep the previous night and I went lunch with Jason in the afternoon. I didn't planned to go out in the noon but this Xta told me that there's a Pet Safari at Vivo City! So went over to take a look. Wah! They have all the imported puppies there.. They got the retriever I wanted!! Expensive!! =(

In the evening Hanzi asked me where I wanted to go.. I thought he would have let me know before he left home, but he was already on the way to town.. So I dropped the idea of going to Holland Village because it's kinda out of the way... I decided to go Haji Lane since I've never been there before..

Got up a cab around 6:50PM from my place and head towards Haji Lane. Haji Lane is somewhere near Bugis and Beach Road. The taxi driver suggested going by ECP... Knn! JAM!! Sibeh tulanz!! Before turning into ECP we saw the jam and tried to avoid it be exiting to Keppel.. Also JAM!! Zzzz... By the time we reached around beach road area was about 7:30PM.. Zzzz.. I guessed by the time we reached there all the shops are closing.. Changed my mind and go Sim Lim. Reached Sim Lim at 7:45PM.. Sianz.. Imagine from Beach Road to Sim Lim take 15minutes! Fuck up!

By the time we reached Sim Lim, most of the shops are about to close.. I don't even know which shop to head to... Sianz.. Ended up at Skylet looking at their monitors in display.. At least in the end bought something.. Bought a 22" Samsung LCD monitor.. =)

Reached home sooo tired, didn't even bother to take a look at my new monitor.. Dumped it one corner and coma on bed.. Next morning first thing wake up and fix it up.. Wah damn cool! Very big screen!! Shiok!

As wide as my keyboard!

Sitting in front of my computer, admired it for few hours! LOL! Hanzi yet to come and take a look at it.. He should come and wow!

Yesterday noon met up with Taine. Finally collected my copy of Adobe Flash and Photoshop CS3 from him. So eager to install everything.. But knn!! The Flash came included with virus... and the Photoshop Extended installer only have those extras bundled but not the main Photoshop installer! Knn! Waited for weeks to get it from him!! Waste my time! In the end I downloaded it from bittorrent in 30minutes! -_-"

My Zhu Bingfa slept like this! Almost thought she's dead!

Dog dog dogs!!

It's Friday again.. Sianz..

Last night he supposed to come out early to meet me? Last minute said he can't because "she" didn't cook and he have to bring "them" out to eat... Zzz... Only able to come out at 8:00PM... Fine... Brought me to Boat Quay for dinner at The Cavern. Supposed to be a drinking place but they also serve a small variety of western, italian and irish food... Heard is also a gathering place for Liverpool fans.

Random pic.. feeling moody..


Wah lau! Shouldn't Heineken pay him some fees?


Zzz...

Not photoshop effect lah! He offered (or insisted) to take a picture for me.. Thanks to his pair of "steady" hands..

Went to Geo and came home before 1:00AM... So sianz.. So boring.. Spent the whole night trying to make my figure blue.. Of course I did it! I made his blue as well! =)

He came to my place after work. Delivered Mcdonald's breakfast! Woohoo! Not splendid.. The eggs were overdone, but when you are hungry you can eat anything. Just like when I am hungry, I always tell people I can eat dinosaurs!!!

These few days keep thinking about dogs! Surfing for dogs and reading on dogs! Shall I get one or not? So many things to consider.. Argh!! Am I really ready for it? Will I be able to get through my father's side? Shall I ask him first? I am very sure he won't agree! So if I ask him first knowing that he won't agree and I still bring it home.. Can't imagine what would happen! Shall I bring home without asking him? What if he hate it so much that he will think of all ways to get rid of it? Tell him a lie that I'm only helping a friend to take care of it for a period (but eventually it becomes mine)? Which breed to get? Which breed would be more acceptable by my father? Actually the breed doesn't really matters!! Not that he hate animals! I observed that he is kind hearted and also animal lover.. Just that my previous dog really screw up everything by chewing away his sofa and cushions.. Haiz...

Hehehe... Smiling dog..

I saw this picture from Pets Channel webby.. This Golden Retriever puppy is so cute.. He seems to be like smiling! I MMS the picture to Hanzi.. He say the dog look frowning and pitiful.. Kaoz!

I really like Golden Retriever... I like the built and size and the friendliness.. They are easy to train and very eager to please their owners... It's not allowed in HDB.. Sianz.. This is not the main problem I think.. It's the size... If I were to bring home such a big dog.. My father might faint (maybe kill me)! Haiz...

Besides a retriever, I really can't think of what other breeds of dogs that I am interested in... I've never been interested in toy breeds.. The only time that I would consider is because they are probably more acceptable by my father... And easier to transport when I have to bring it out. A chihuahua is small but not that adorable.. It's just cute but it barks alot! Zzz.. Tri ask me to get a yorkshire to company their 小黑.. Aiyo.. Yorkshire is very expensive lor! Cost about $2k to $2.8k!! Probably can buy two retrievers!! Even if you can afford to spend as much as $5k on one yorkshire... The price cannot promise you that you'll get a healthy yorkshire!! They are so prone to many disease...

At first I was considering maybe a Cocker Spaniel or Miniature Schnauzer... But still, not the breed that I would like to keep! They are slightly smaller lah.. But my father forbid me to keep a dog not because my dog was very big! Haiz.. So if size isn't the main factor, why shouldn't I go for one that I like.. It's a long term thing.. I'm getting a dog not because I need a dog.. But I wish to keep a dog.. I wish to keep a retriever.. Anyway retrievers are only classified as medium sized dogs? Just one head taller than my old dog (a beagle).. Not very big right? And it's obedient, that's the main thing that would make my father change it's opinion!

Another part of me also worries about keeping a dog.. As I say it's a long term commitment.. I don't know if any changes in my lifestyle in the future might affect everything.. Haiz.. I don't want another dog who anyhow poo or pee or chew my house down.. But there are really times that I can't watch over the dog.. Will everything goes smoothly in training the dog to be good? Keeping a bigger dog also means more food (and more poo and pee from it).. LOL.. Some more it's long hair dog... Need grooming.. Aiyo.. I am so confused now... Probably I might take another few days or few weeks or even months to consider till my enthusiasm dies off...

Tonight he promised me to come out early! I have a choice to go Sim Lim or visit the pet shops at Holland Village! Which one to choose?! LOL.. I don't really have anything to buy at Sim Lim yet.. I just wanna go take a look and check prices.. Probably after Sim Lim we might end up in Bugis shopping a bit and dinner.. Hmmm... If we go Holland Village, it's only rushing to the pet shops before they close then dinner.. Dunno which one to choose...

The Insane Killer

Last blogged on Monday which was only 3 days ago.. But I feel like a little lag of posts.. Probably so much happenings (actually nothing special.. but its all about that you-know-which-idiot and that's enough to take me a long post to complete) the last few days but I have not put it here.

In fact after Monday's post, I went out to meet him for food after his work.. He said got something for me - a pair of tumbler dolls.. He got them from Veron.. Aiya.. If I'm not wrong, they are from Taine.. I think Taine told me he ordered these handmade tumblers from China..

This I name them Pretty & Idiot.. Of course the Pretty is me and Idiot is him.. I am the one winking.. =Þ

My life is as usual - S I A N Z.... I watched drama the whole of yesterday! Omg! Those shitty Hongkong drama they have to cut those scenes in such a way that you cannot stop chasing episodes after another. I was only supposed to watch a few episodes and go to bed.. Ended up finished the whole series of Brink Of Law.. Kaoz!.. Didn't catch any sleep on Tuesday because you know - his offday.

The something which I want to blog down.. I did something very crazy! LOL.. Monday evening met up with him.. Sianz.. Already told him the previous day and was expecting him to come out early because I wanted to go Sim Lim.. He only managed to SMS me at 7:00PM and say leaving home at 7:30PM... WTF?! So 7:30PM leaving home would only reach me at 8:00PM!! Want to go Sim Lim watch the shops pull down the shutters ah?! Grrrr! Ended up at TBP... Sianz.. Later followed him to Geo and stayed through the night.

Halfway through quarrel!! Kaoz.. sickening! His damn attitude again! Saw him distracted so went to ask him what's wrong he fuck me off! Fine! Then continued to give me attitude the whole night! Later as usual Steven Goh fetched us home.. Dropped me off first.. He walked me to the lift and showed me some stance.. Dunno how to describe lah but he just walked halfway and turned and went off! Fuck you! I could really feel the adrenaline pumping! KNN! Want to play stance with me is it?! Ok! Let's see who gets the last laugh!

Was boiling for a while but I turned back he was no more in sight.. Already got back into Steven's car and they drove off.. I ran out to the main road and hailed a cab.. Destination?? HIS HOUSE OF COURSE!! So exciting! Hahaha!! Don't play play with me ok!

On the way I was already arranging my stance and drafting my speech.. LOL.. I estimated that they would go for breakfast so I would be able to "surprise" him at his void deck! *evil grin* But of course I must make sure that they really went for breakfast. When I reached there I called him. I called with my mobile so he also guessed I was not home yet and he said, "you still busy outside with friends don't disturb you lor!" Wtf?! Attitude again? Anyway he say call me back when he reach home. Nevermind! You better enjoy your breakfast, later you will know!

Usually he'll chat with me at on the phone at his void deck, but that morning he needed to go home straight because Steven will be waiting downstairs while he throw a bag of stuffs for him. He called me upon reaching his void deck saying he is "going home". By saying this means - don't want to talk to me on the phone! I saw them from a distance. I said, "It's ok.. Go up and come down again lor.." He blur... What is "come down again"? I told him I was at his void deck, he was still pondering dunno whether to believe me.. Then I stood at the lift when the lift went beeping.. I was smiling away happily, "Can you hear it?" He damn pissed! But I know he panicked.. Lalalala!

He came down to look for me... Gave me the fierce stare and asked me why I was there.. I replied him, "Why? This place belong to you ah!? And you want to talk to me with such attitude? Fine! Go ahead! Be as rude as you can!" Me very arrogant and smiling away.. LOL.. Why? Scared ah?! Scared then beg me lor! Knn! If you dare continue with that attitude, then we shall see who is more in for the game!! Don't think I am good to bully! Don't threaten me with that attitude! We shall see who is more of a threat! CCB! I never demand anyone to bow to me or lick my boot, but I expect mutual respect!

I felt like the insane killer in a movie or serial.. Having him as my hostage tied up naked.. Holding a knife in my hand close to his dick and threatening to slice it off bit by bit with an evil smile.. xD

We found a place to sit down and talk.. Yes another lecture round.. Of course is ME lecture HIM! I complained many things!! I poured many stuffs!! Especially the part he can't bother to specially spare time for me! And he could only give an irresponsible reply "You know my timing wat.." Wtf?! So what? Can't you SPECIALLY spare a different timing? I know your timing so? So I must live with it ah?! Fuck! Then YOU KNOW MY TIMING OR NOT?! KNN! Keep telling me he done his best.. Best?? Knn! I think Oxford or Cambridge must add new defininations to the word "best". Best - Meaning trying very hard or only just trying to do something, BUT nothing is done! In short, Best = Nothing.

Nabeiz! Always come out 8plus in the evening.. Only have enough time for dinner... No time for shopping! I don't mean I like to shop, but sometimes I want to go to some specific place with him and by the time he comes out the shops are already close! Even some restaurants also closing, we have to rush there and place for last order and rush to finish the food!! Knn! It's so frustrating!! CCB! Where is the initiative to make time once in a while!! Only once in a while when there is the need! And to add on to the frustration, why do I have to seems like I need to BEG for him to go out with me! CCB! I can make a phonecall and many people would queue to buy me dinner or company me for shopping!! Do I have to make myself so miserable?! It's all because I wanted to be with him!! And all he can tell me is he tried his "best" and "you know my timing"! SO?! You mean I shall live with it ah!

Then he argued that even though he come out late, we can still go to other available places. He always let me make decisions. He always let me have all the choices. Wtf?! Where got choice?! Yes I have the right to make all the decisions but there are no choices left for me to choose! Knn! He picture it and phrase it like I have many choices! That kind of timing, what can I choose?! Then I argued if he go market... And if he come to my stall buy vege from me..

"Oei! Wan buy vege? Come take a look! Many vege here!"
"What you have?"
"Many vege here!! I have local carrots, China carrots, US carrots, Malaysia carrots... Very fresh!! What you want?"
"-_-"

Knn! You tell me got what choice?! All carrots wat! CCB!! And those are the kind of "CHOICE" that he have for me! (Actually when I quoted him, I used "eng chai" instead of carrots.. but dunno what's eng chai in English.. hehe) I told Ashlie about this eng chai thing.. She keep on laugh.. Zzzz.. She say very good.. She say must use such layman style to explain to him a very chim meaning.. Seriously I also very proud of myself for coming up with this "Eng Chai" metaphor... Muahahah!! =x

I went on for like almost 2 hours! Talked about many issues! People going to work passing by and the sky became brighter and brighter and dunno since when a group of elderly playing Taichi in front of us.. He complained stomachache want to go home.. Fine! I also tired! All the way to CCK ok!! Zzz...

Anyway everything was a happy ended.. He paid attention nicely.. At first he was damn pissed to find me there.. I know.. But he dare not show anything in case he trigger me to do something even more crazy! After all, he know he was at fault all along!

Tuesday night his off.. Went NYDC to eat.. He came out late again!! Zzz.. Rushed for NYDC's last order.. And rushed to finish the food and leave! Sianz.. Not that I like NYDC.. But that's one of the few places that I can think of going to eat at 11:30PM besides Swensen's or some hawker! After that went Cineleisure played Xbox again..

Later part, another round of lecture.. So sickening! This time I don't want to go into it too much details.. About the same stuffs.. Don't know why everytime after hearing my lectures.. His mood will be very good.. And will act like a clown and make me laugh.. Zzz.. He told me he find the things I said very meaningful.. And he learnt a lot from me.. Kaoz!! Then why he never put the things he learnt into good use! Always piss me so much in the end need to act like a clown!!! Zzz... Backside itchy like to be scolded ah!! Then he say after hearing my lectures he love me more and more.. He admire my intelligence.. -_-" Wtf is this... (Of course I very happy to hear this.. Some compliments of my intelligence.. most importantly "love me more and more") xD

Tonight he have time to spare for me again.. Let's see how he fare.. I told him I WANT TO GO SIM LIM SEE MONITORS! And I also told him I DON'T WANT TO GO THERE SEE PEOPLE PULL SHUTTERS!

This week not a good beginning for punting.. But it's ok.. I will see blue by settlement day! =)

I just messed up my room again.. My stupid hamsters contributed a bit by kicking their nest out of the cage! Zzz... Just now I digged into my plastic trunk and look for a nice piece of quilt covers.. Now the quilt covers all over my room.. I enjoy buying quilt covers.. So many of them.. Some only used once..

He say want to buy me a dog.. But I am still considering whether I should keep one.. And whhich breed should it be.. Haiz...

Yummy Yummy Yum!!

Don't know how I past these few days.. Eat.. Drama.. Sleep.. =(

Was waiting for Xta to send me some pictures for this blog entry.. Zzz.. Took her like 3 days!

Friday forgot what reason that made Xta called me.. Then I invited her for dinner.. I tempted her with Foie Gras!! Muahaha.. She hesitated at first.. If we were to go and eat without Tri, scarlly he angry.. Haha.. Anyway she cannot overcome the temptation so we arranged to go Fish Tales at Clarke Quay!

At first I thought Tri won't be coming but later then I found out that she actually invited him along as well.. Before that I was thinking how I want to blog it down if Tri were to find out we went to eat without him.. I even planned to come up with this..

Muahaha..

It's a joke ok! Lol.. I didn't plan this before.. Hehe.. Anyway Tri came late with a not very good mood.. But of course.. Looking at his size you know any nice food will melt his heart.. Hahhaha!

Woo Hoo!!


Xta said too much of it will feel sick!


Look at this Chao Ah Beng who came late.. =X

Foie Gras is of course only for appetizer... Then we had main course.. This time I decided to try out their Lamb Tenderloin.. The name alone sounds delicious! LOL.. Xta and Tri went for fish.. We realised their fish dishes not really nice.. But my lamb is of course!! Superb!! Xta said I seems like very happy with my lamb..

Of course!! It's really tender!!

The whole meal cost $210++!!! And therefore when Xta zipped up the photos and send me with a file name "$220 Goose Liver".. LOL.. All claim from Hanzi!

These few days he's been pissing me up a lot.. He just can't seems to say or do the right things.. Or probably I'm going through some very moody days of my life.. NOT PMS OK! Just feeling sianz.. I'm glad this week is another blue week.. =)

Boring leh...

Sibeh sianz....

Slept the whole day... And watched drama the whole night.. Tri say we are becoming like aunties.. Watching dramas to past time.. Kaoz.. I think few days ago Ashlie also commented this.. Zzz

Monday was last day of the Hungry Ghost Festival... Hanzi left home early to go Geo prepare offerings.. Wah.. This year I never take part in anything with the praying at Geo... I met up with him at Clarke Quay and ate downstairs at Fish Tales. Omg!! Foie Gras is in the menu!!!!!! We each ordered a set.. Sibeh song!!!

This expression again...

Brought the camera with me but forgot to take pictures.. Seriously.. Where got people always anyhow take pictures.. Wahaha.. Anyway I snapped the picture when he almost finish everything.. 3 small portions in a plate.. Left 1 portion.. He ete so fast.. But really sibeh song.. LOL.. Even few hours after the meal.. I could smell the goose liver when I burped.. xD

Tuesday Xta came to my house to pass me the M1 broadband thingy because it's Hanzi's off day and I might need the broadband thing.. (In the end never use also.. Dunno how to pass it back to her also.. =X..) Anyway helped her installed a copy of Photoshop CS in her new lappy.. Later went NYDC for dinner.. Tri came to join us too.. Later Hanzi came..

Sometimes I got the thinking that he might feel a bit left out hanging out with me and my friends.. Anyway this part for logging - talked to me about soccer... Login GPRS check score.. I got witness!! Xta saw!! xD

After NYDC, supposed to go for a movie but don't have any comedy screening.. Sianz.. Ended up playing games at Cineleisure! LOL.. Surprised?? He play games with me.. Haha..

Actually I sort of tempted him to play.. The last time we went there already saw people playing Winning Eleven at the Xbox consoles.. And so there's Mexico (Me) vs. Finland (Him)... Hahaha.. Final score 1-0!! I win!! Later we have England (Me) vs. Brazil (Him)... Final score 1-0 also!! I win again!! Joke!! England beat brazil!! Very fun!! Next time we'll go earlier to play! =D

Just now I did something very disgusting.. LOL.. I think I better not say.. It's real disgusting but nothing wrongful or evil.. Something about constipation.. You ownself imagine whatever you want.. =Þ

Today will be another boring day I supposed.. I hope he can come out early tonight.. =)

Some random pics of my Zhou Bingzhu~

See wat!?


Zzzz...

As Usual...

I drank alot!

I don't mean water.. Drank alot.. Of course is alcohol lah!

Seems like nowadays I only go to Geo on Sundays.. I can't explain why only Sunday, but I just don't want to go too often because I don't want to be taken for granted. Anyway staying home is more relaxed than hanging around there without my computer and a comfortable chair or bed.

The new band has arrived at Geo. The new poster is up.. One of the new singer look like that 仔仔 from F4! Saw the photo last time on Shujuan's birthday... Must inform her.. LOL.. Hmmm.. During her birthday I drank a lot.. Still wondering what happened to me that day.. Just now I drank more than that day.. But nothing happened to me..

Anyway, just now did have a small dispute with him.. Actually no quarrels.. But dunno why and how that we started talking.. Then I started explaining some things to him.. Seize the chance to tell him about the things between us.. Sort of like giving him some healthy lectures.. I hope he understand what I was trying to bring forward..

Earlier I met him for food.. Yes.. Again.. Not that we quarrelled over it.. But I want to BLOG IT DOWN for my own record! Lol... Came to fetch me in cab.. Talked about soccer.. Zzz.. Talk about Vincent's friend losing all the credits on SBO.. Talked about Vincent's friend was lucky to get away with taking Spain.. Zzz.. I don't even know who the fuck is that guy.. Went makan at River Valley... Keep on push the sotong to me again! How many times must I tell him DON'T ASK ME TO EAT SOTONG! During makan, keep on looking at mobile to send SMS and check score.. Zzz.. Ok fine! I never fuss over it.. I am not complaining now.. Just logging it!

It's Monday again.. Settlement day! Was another dreadful week of battle.. Every week have to lose all the winnings on a Thursday.. Then recoup on Friday.. Stress.. This week I thought I was doom.. LOL.. Lost on Thursday again.. Managed to recoup only on Sunday.. At least still BLUE!!!!! 8 weeks of blue!! I hope it continues!! =)

It's raining now.. I hate rainy days.. But now is fine, because I'm going to bed.. =)

Idiot!

Again and again and again!! Who's got so much patience for the same nonsense everytime!? Driving me mad...

After Tuesday's quarrel, I thought he tried to make an effort to make a change and make me happy for once! He gave some excuse saying a friend treating him to dinner, so he could come out earlier to meet me last night.

Came to fetch me in a cab around 8:15PM. I got on the cab. Blabbing about soccer again.. Zzz.. But actually I didn't notice about it and I wasn't annoyed.. All the way from my house till we reached TBP(Tiong Bahru PLaza)... Then he was on his phone.. Don't know checking what.. SMS or GPRS.. I don't know.. From 1st floor to 2nd floor.. He was with me in a shop browsing some garments.. I went to test out the piece, came out from the fitting room wanted to show him he disappeared from the shop again.. Changed back to my clothes and found him standing outside the shop looking at the mobile still. Zzz.. Then from 2nd floor to 3rd floor.. Still on the mobile! He just tag beside me looking at his mobile.. Sometimes lagging behind and lost sight of me.. Zzz.. In fact I wasn't really annoyed still.. Then eventually I asked him, in a normal tone, "What are you checking on your phone?" And he just flared and raised his voice at me, "Nothing lah! Just send a few SMS to ask people to transfer money lah! What's wrong!?" KNN!! You dare get angry before I do!! I was just asking nicely!! Damn pissed! I stomped off!

He probably lost sight of me, but didn't bother to call or SMS me to check where I was.. I went out of the building for a smoke! Damn pissed! Need to cool off a bit.. Called Ashlie to chat.. Then saw him walking out of the mall too.. He spotted me.. Stood at one side of the pillar and waited for me while I was still on my phone. I ended the call with Ashlie shortly.. Stared at him.. He accused me for making a fuss and restricting him from looking at his mobile! WTF! I only asked nicely once!!! Before he raised his voice earlier, I wasn't even annoyed or upset at all!! Just 10 seconds before the thing happened, I was still smiling at him and browsing and showing to him a set of Hello Kitty pyjamas!!! He knew that he had been on the phone too long and he knew I wouldn't like it! HE IS conscious about it!! Which is why when I finally asked about it, he got frustrated and raised his voice at me! So IF he is conscious about it, then STOP doing it! NO INITIATIVE AT ALL! And still dare to get angry before I do!

I said I didn't restrict him from using the phone at all! But he should know his limits!! All the way since we reached the mall!? Then what's the point of coming out!? I don't need an idiot to tag beside or BEHIND me and the mind drift away to don't know where! He kept on lost sight of me and I had to look for him and wait for him to catch up! Everything is absolutely fine because I was in a good mood until he raised his voice at me! And still not apologetic at all! Then he pointed back at me saying I was also on the phone neglecting him! WTF!! It was because he pissed me so much that I walked out to have a smoke and called Ashlie to chat! Only for less than 5 minutes!

He wanted to get over with it and asked me to stop the quarrel. Trying to drag me to move. I was damn pissed!! His fucking attitude!! I didn't want to forgive him so easily! Did something wrong and trying to get away with it by finding fault with me! A big man can't even admit his own mistake! DAMN SHAMEFUL! And I demand an apology. He just went like, "FINE! SORRY! LET'S GO NOW DON'T STAND HERE!" What kind of apology is that?! FUCK! Then I replied him, "I AM SORRY I AM VERY UNREASONABLE NOW! BCOS U MADE ME DAMN PISSED AND U DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO APOLOGISE! I HAD TO REQUEST FOR AN APOLOGY WHICH YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO TAKE INITIATIVE! AND YOUR APOLOGY IS NOT SINCERE AT ALL!"

After a while I decided to get over with it. He voluntary held my hand to walk back into the mall. Supposed to go for dinner before the shops closed. While walking, he was mumbling in silence, some sort like cursing and giving me some scowls and that tulanz face! I just shaked his hand off! WTF! U held my hands voluntarily! Stop that nonsense! You were wrong in the first place! I never beg you to give in to me! Stop giving that fucking attitude!

At the dinner we didn't talk. And he STILL checking on his mobile all the while!!! KNN!! Look at this fucking idiot!! He really trying to piss people off! I just kept quiet all the way! Couldn't be bothered to say anything because I know if I opened my mouth it would be quarrel! I SURE FUCK AND SCREAM AT HIM! And he DON'T KNOW WHAT IS AUTOMATIC!!!!

After dinner was waiting for cab at the roadside. Waited for quite long. He KNN STILL on his mobile!! Probably to him, since there's nothing to do other than waiting for a cab to come, so he might as well check his mobile! But to me, IF YOU BOTHER ABOUT HOW I FEEL, THEN YOU SHOULD JUST AVOID DOING IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! Waited for quite a while still no cab. He asked me to call for a cab. I don't understand why he must always ask me to call when he ALSO HAS A PHONE! FINE! I called, but engaged! And I continued trying. Then he was on his phone again! I walked towards him and purposely take a look at what he is looking. WTF!! Log in GPRS to check score!! KNNCCB!! You asked me to call for a cab, YOU YOURSELF CHECKING SCORE! WTF!! Purposely keep repeating the same thing!!! FUCKING IDIOT! Not interested to make peace is it!? Cannot take initiative to avoid doing the things that pissed me!!!

Finally got a cab. In the cab STILL FUCKING checking the mobile! Reached my place before I got down, tried to give me a goodbye kiss. I pushed him away. For wat?! What's the meaning of it?! Feeling sorry?! Then tell me about it! Then should have stop repeating the nonsense! What's the meaning of a kiss!? Fuck! I no mood for this! Not going to forgive him easily!

I wasn't particular over him looking at the mobile anymore.. I was really angry because his attitude!! And even more pissed that he can't even take initiative!!! It just show that he was not interested to make peace at all!! Normally I'll call him when I reached home. Last night I didn't. Instead, I sent him a series of SMS.. So angry!! Complained to Xta on MSN!

After reading my SMS, he did call up to apologise in a nicer tone. But spoke awhile he tried to argue again! Still trying to find fault with me! Fuck! If you want to apologise! Then just admit your mistake and stop argueing! Spoke halfway he had to go back to work and we put down the phone. Later he finally called again to apologise! This time really apologise! And said the right things! Admit his mistakes! Said that we only have a few hours to go out and yet wasted away without paying attention on me. EXACTLY! Knn! This is why I am pissed! NOT that I restrict him using his mobile! KNN! How limited the time we can spend together! And he always waste them away!! He still tried to give excuse saying that I have to understand him because sometimes he had too much things in his mind and would get carried away. WTF?! Don't give me excuse!! Sometimes?? It's EVERYTIME! I emphasized EVERYTIME!!! He said he'll try his best... Zzz.. He told me he'd try his best many times already!! Did he tried?? Not even once done!! This is call trying your best? If you are trying your best, then when I point it out on the spot, you should have stopped it immediately!!

Anyway, since he said the right things.. Finally.. I forgave him.. Xta told me.. Must blog down everytime he look at his mobile.. LOL.. Sure! I will blog down!! EACH and EVERYTIME! I am waiting to see if he finally make an effort not to piss me! Grrr...

Bad mood shouldn't really bet!! Last night lost away my winnings since Monday.. But nevermind.. As long as not losing.. Just now he woke up and SMS me.. Wake up straight away SMS me about soccer.. Zzz.. And added ask me don't be angry ah! Kaoz.. I replied him and cursed him.. I told him I hope he lose money.. So he would regret staying at home to bet.. Should have come out and meet me better...

Bumming Around..

YaWnZzZzz... Woke up 5:58AM... Feeling very lethargic till now... Wah... I missed a day of sleep on Tuesday.. Slept last evening around dinner time.. Straight 11 hours sleep!!

Today's weather looking good now.. But I think I'm too lazy to do any laundry.. =x

Tuesday night-out with Hanzi was a very boring and unhappy one... Only until when we both reached home then thing's been resolved.. Zzzz... As usual went for makan.. So I named Swensen's at Orchard.. I was quite hungry and I couldn't choose between a steak or a baked rice.. I ordered both...

There was this couple sitting next to us.. Behind Hanzi... And the guy saw me finished a steak then to the baked rice.. Knn.. dunno what he whispered to the lady friend then giggle a bit and the lady also turned and look at me.. CCB! Cannot ah! Cannot eat two portion is it! Nabeiz! Then they laughed and joke about something related and I heard the lady say "我增肥可以吗!".. NI NA MA! Your problem ah! Knn.. Then I sms Hanzi.. "The two ccb behind you gossiping about me eat so many things!".. LOL

Later we passed by a restaurant... Or maybe a cafe somewhere.. They have this tank with a BIG fish displaying.. Sibeh miserable fish.. So big but the tank is only as big as him..

See my reflection on the glass then you can compare how big the fish is... Hanzi say the tank so small.. The fish so miserable and the sulky face.. I asked simi face?? Then he demo..

Not bad.. almost look-a-like!

Lazing at home the whole of yesterday. I finished watching the Heart Of Greed. Finished the drama so fast.. Cham.. Today don't know what to do.. Ordered a McDelivery like 50 minutes ago and they still not here yet! Zzz...

I hope he can meet me for dinner tonight! I DON'T CARE!! I WANT SASHIMI AND SUSHI!!

Disturbance...

Haiz... Last night ended at Vivo City.. Not a fruitful trip.. I didn't buy anything.. Not a very happy session.. Had a small dispute the moment we reached there..

He came to fetch me in a cab around 7:40PM.. The moment I got in the cab he was on the phone with Vincent. Talking about payment stuffs then before ending the phonecall, Vincent asked about dinner.. And he sounded like we'll be meeting Vincent for dinner and even turned and look at me asking for suggestions! Wtf?! I gave him an angry frown. He was pissed by my frown then told Vincent keep in touch later and see how. Put down the phone he asked me what's wrong with me and my attitude?! Kaoz! I should be the one asking! We were supposed to go enjoy ourself and it's already almost 8:00PM!! We don't have enough time left and you still think of meeting Vincent?! You could've just turn him down and say NOT FREE!! Why must give people a false impression that you might be meeting him!?

So got down the cab at Vivo.. He just strolled around aimlessly and I tag aside.. Very pissed! Another fucked up evening!! I just couldn't take it anymore and say DON'T WANT SHOP LIAO LAH! The mood is not there!! And he accuse me saying I'm the one at fault! WTF?! I say he is ALSO giving attitude and his mind don't know drifted to where, I'm not the only one! We were in the middle of the mall argueing, but softly.. People walking all around and he felt embarrassed??! He asked me don't create a scene and he continue walking!! CCB! That statement!! "You don't create a scene here lah!"... This really pissed me!! You knn want face?! I didn't shout at you also! When did I create a scene?! And you just turned and continue walking! CB! Like that how to go on shopping? We just reached here only.. And now this kind of atmosphere... Very tulanz! I just turn and walk away.. I stomp out of the mall.. Didn't even bother to look back at him!

Wanted to smoke but I realised I finished my last stick at home. So I crossed the road over to Harbour Front to buy a new pack. After buying ciggy I walked out of the building again to smoke.. There he jumped into my sight and went smiling like heeheehee.. Zzz... Trying to cheer me.. Tulanz! I just gave him a scowl and turned away.. And he was like laughing away telling me jokes and making fun of me trying to cheer me.. Why must really pissed someone then you bother to do such things?! You wouldn't need to act like a clown now if you had been nice just now! Acting like a clown now is more embarrassing than just now! I finished my ciggy and decided to get over it..

Went shopping.. Walked in to Challenger and I picked up a battery charger and a 2GB thumbdrive.. Browse around further and suddenly I put the things back and decided not to buy.. I just felt like wasting money spending on them.. I didn't really have in mind anything to buy!! And the two things which I picked up cost $100plus.. I think it's waste money even though I might need them sometimes.. I think I'll buy another time when I really need them.. Shopped around for clothes but didn't really see anything that I specially like.. I don't want to buy for the sake of buying.. Not because he want to bring me shopping then I purposely buy something.. I prefer to spend the money on something that I really need or like.. In the end we only had dinner.. Went to some restaurant serving buffet style brazillian grill meat.. Then he need to go work.. Sianz..

Actually I am not exactly too disappointed with last night's dating.. Probably I am so used to it.. It did spoil my mood.. But I can't be bothered to get angry over it too much.. I am so sick of all these already..

Tonight his offday again.. Haiz.. Another boring evening.. Don't know where to go!! Later probably check out if there's any movie! I don't fancy movies.. But since I never been to movie with him before.. And at least a good 2 hours to spend away.. I hope he don't come out too late..

Sunday night went Geo I brought my camera along. Wanted to test out the Smile Detection feature.. It supposed to only snap pictures when it detect a smile.. But the sensitivity is quite lousy at times.. Don't know how it actually works.. Zzz.. I tried taking a photo of Hanzi.. Then the singer Ah New walked in.. Tried a few times but no pictures were taken because it couldn't detect a smile.. And they were trying very hard to cooperate with me... In the end I switched off that feature and took a snap of them...

See this two mad guys...

These few days the Zhou Bingzhu had been very noisy!! Chewing the cage bars making alot of noise.. Sometimes woke me up in the middle of my sleep.. I used my comb and poked her.. She will attack my comb.. Idiot!I just took my revenge and disturb her during her sleep.. She was sleeping very soundly.. I took my comb and poke her in the middle of her beauty sleep.. =Þ

Since that day I posted a pic of Zhu Bingfa saying she is very fat.. I realised she started to run the wheel and exercise.. She can hear me!!! LOL.. But these two days she stopped.. Haiz.. Lack of determination..

Another boring day...

Voluntary Insomnia

Hehe... I can't find an appropriate term to describe! Just feeling tired.. It's actually time to sleep... But I just keep myself awake yet nothing to do.. Trying to watch drama online and surf around.. Zzz...

So I should be sleeping since 5 hours ago? Instead I caught few episodes of drama and finally decided to stop and go to bed.. But I am still hanging around.. Visited Christa's blog.. Which I had already went since I came home around 4:30AM.. Kaoz.. Wtf am I reading again.. the same thing.. And I even read a few times.. Zzz.. Then I went Cheree's blog... A few times too... And some other blogs which are in my favourites folder..

Not that I so nosey poker... But I sibeh bo liao!! Just trying to past time! And after finishing the same thing... I am still here!! Blogging...

Just now when I was at Cheree's blog... Eventually.. I took peeps at her friends' blogs.. And found photos of Cheree.. Hehe.. I never met her before... Never have a chance to see how she look like.. Not a decent photo that I could peep too... Err.. I did have a photo.. That one TOO DECENT! Knn.. lol... Because it's a makeover photo lah.. Cannot tell the actual looks..

Long ago I showed this to Ashlie... She said why let kids take makeover photos.. Actually she meant like err... Teaching the kid how to be vain is no good.. But it's a FOC session.. So the mum just let her to go for fun.. But seriously, are we getting jealous over how kids nowadays can own the expensive toys and gadgets, enjoy and experience those fun things that we only get to try until we are as old as now? Hmmm...

Cheree is in spectacles...

Ahh.. I prefer her original look.. Sweet and innocent lah.. I read her friends' blogs... They very wild girls leh.. All talk about BGR stuffs... Go out watch movie hold hands.. One even talked about went Mcdonald's and kenna DIAO by another group of girls.. OMG! CHAO AH LIAN!!

WTF?! Why post a small girl's photo in your blog?! We not interested to see!! We are more interested to see more chio pictures of Heidi, Tea, i^|ikeTea, Sane, Insane, Saint!!... Or whatever you call lah!! =Þ

FINE!! Just for your information nia lah! Cheree is Hanzi's daughter ok! Kaoz... Ok.. End of the kaypoh stuffs here...

Yesterday was a beautiful Sunday.. Really woke up feeling fresh and lucky.. Evening received an SMS from Hanzi.. He said one of the kakis who bought 4D through him kenna!!! He text me an amount showing 350000... Huh?! I thought he over keyed the JEELO!! (ok.. jeelo = zero.. heehee..) No mistake!! No extra jeelo!! Wah!! So happy for him.. Got commission for him!! But he complained the bookies deduct here and there.. Some old debts and current due amount.. His commission got cut a big percent.. Haiz.. Then I have to console him...

Well.. He always worry on every Monday.. He bet and try to win money.. All because he want to clear debts and make more money.. Now with this part of the debts cleared, at least in future will be less burden and better mindset to make money for your own pocket!! It's how you choose to look at the situation.. If you want to dwell over it, complaining that you can't see the money coming in.. Then what if nobody actually striked the 4D?? You'll still be in worry, looking for money...

Anyway, the main thing is... TONIGHT HE IS COMING OUT EARLY!! Muahaha... Not really very early lah.. just like maybe 6:00PM.. Because he need to pass the winnings to the kaki.. Then he'll be free to bring me to wherever I want to go.. He want to bring me for shopping.. And he INSIST I buy something.. Now.. I don't know what I want to buy leh.. LOL..

I already gotten what I want leh.. My Nintendo Wii... And he just bought me a Sony Cybershot few days ago and I was feeling guilty over it.. Now at least feeling better because of his little windfall.. I can't think of what I want to ask for.. LOL.. Alizee reminded me to get my portable piano!! Wahahha!! KNN!! But a 88 keys portable piano is really expensive lor.. near $1k!!! I think this is asking for too much.. LOL.. Later go shopping then see how lor..

Nabeiz! Now just started to rain.. And this rain seems like it will last for the whole day!! I HATE RAINY DAYS! Hopefully it will stop by late noon! Now off to sleep!! If not cannot wake up later and screw up everything!

Beautiful Sunday~

Ahhh... This week I slept very little.. Friday night missed my sleep again.. Until last night I doze off before 11:00PM until this morning 9:30AM.. No disturbance... Sibeh song...

This week's punting was drastic as well.. LOL.. Very up and down... But still.. Can see blue!! So happy!!

I've completed the main story of Trauma Centre.. Unlocked the X Missions.. All the missions with extreme difficulty.. Really tough! Knn.. I like challenges.. But too tough since to turn me off..

I'm feeling a bit bored now.. But still in quite a good mood.. Probably because I slept well and everything seems to be going smooth.. I'm thinking of a new blogskin again.. Hehehe.. Dunno where to start with.. Will start the planning after this..

I hope everyday is as beautiful as today! =)