Today Is My Son's Birthday!

I had a terrible weekend... =(

Hanzi really pissed me alot recently! I tried to bear with it since his birthday is coming. But I think he's getting from bad to worse! I hate it when he blabber nonsense. Seriously just nonsense!!! Nothing to say just shut up lah! Try to act funny? But his statement just make no sense and most of the time its damn annoying and sometimes with sarcastic meaning in it. Then I am so lack of patience recently and I'll just get pissed with his sarcasm. He say I over sensitive. Why can't he just talk normally like anyone else?! Why must always make statement with indirect meaning!

Maybe because he's got so many bad points for me to pick on him and lecture about, sometimes he want revenge! I went Jason's house on Friday. And he wants to show me that he is unhappy about it! Kaoz.. Should I be happy that he is actually jealous?! But he seems to pick on it purposely. I only going Jason's house to help him set up his router and laptop leh! Zzz... And I've got so much time and nothing to do at home! Not that he has time for me and wanna jio me go gai gia! Zzz... He busy with horses... And wanna get jealous over what?! Sicko!

Saturday I went out in the noon to collect my cheque. It was raining, Jason offered to fetch me then later we went Sim Lim shopping. Before I left home I was in a rush as usual. Locked my room's door, forgot something and went in again. In and out a few times. Finally out of my house, locked the gate and walk down the stairs. I had this uneasy feeling wondering if I had closed my room's door. Then I assume I probably did but maybe forgot to lock. I was thinking nevermind, nobody will open it so I didn't bother to go back and check.

Evening came home and came into my room. Ok.. door wasn't lock... Step in... OMG!!!!! Things missing!! Someone came in!! Did I close my door?!!? Why would people come in! Who?! Who came in and touch my things? Throw my rubbish!? Throw my cigarette boxes and my ash tray!! OMG! FUCK!! My room was VERY MESSY lor!! I feel so fucked! Later I found out it was my father!! Zzzz... I feel very uneasy by that.. He came in.. dunno what he saw.. and he cleared my rubbish!! And you know got some ladies' stuffs!! Argh!! Probably I embarassed.. But I felt something else worse than embarassment!! Later he came back... And kpkb say my room messy, complained I smoke so much!! Nvm.. then he said he smelled smoke so he got his locksmith friend to open my door and came in to check! And his friend also shocked! Fuck!! Someone else came too?!?! NO! He lied!! He must be lying!! I am sure!! He always do this to me! Always tell some useless lie!! He lied to add on to my embarassment!! Idiot!!!!!

Until today I haven't check if what other things are missing! Zzz... Anyway, that incident left me feeling uneasy for the rest of the night. Was supposed to go down to Geo and I was feeling moody and tired so I stayed home. And then LOSE MONEY! Lost the whole week's winning. Knn... Later part of the night Hanzi called. Ask me don't bet. His tone sucks! His phrasing also SUCKS! "....You don't bet lah! Bad mood bet sure lose one... Bad mood just go and sleep or play games... I got feeling you CONFIRM LOSE one lah.. Don't bet lah... You know how to teach me you don't know how to do yourself! SURE LOSE one lah!..." Zzz... He was supposed to console me... But he called and speak with annoying tone and tell me all these unsoothing words! Fine! I know he is just trying to remind me to avoid betting when bad mood. He can't phrase it nicely, fine! I forgive his tone and just keep quiet and pay attention.

He continued to blabber and then "...Waste so much effort win from Monday to Friday then lose everything on Saturday.... So KUM LAN for what!?..." Knn... This time I damn pissed!! I reply "Do you have to use the word kum lan?" Then he not happy with what I said. He got angry and shout louder! CCB!! He supposed to call and console me but with his fucked attitude and say me kum lan and then still get angry before I do!! And accuse me that I throw my temper at him because I lose money?! What the fuck!? Later which he added that he was only trying to mean it was silly to waste few days' effort in one night, not scolding me kum lan. Kaoz!! Then in the first place when I asked, he should've just correct the word and tell me that he don't mean it!! I would've accept what he say and won't feel so bad about it! Knn he just shouted at me even louder with vulgars and accuse I throw temper because I lost money! Nabeiz!! Anyway I made him say sorry! Fuck up! Spoil my mood! And I woke up next morning having fever! Tulanz!

He just wake up the next day as if nothing happened! Not that I am a petty sort. But I don't like people to act blur this way. I was expecting him to find out how I am feeling and give me a good explanation or some sort of assurance and comfort. He just tell me he is sick. He got lao sai.. body ache.. bla bla.. Zzzz.. I am having fever also leh! Knn... Serve him right for lao sai!! I ever told him that everytime he make me angry by saying hurting words or argueing unreasonably, he'll get punishment. Which really come true everytime! Haha! Everytime knn throw temper this way, he will have lao sai next day and shit until his ass pain! I told him Piggy poke one, because he bully me!!! =Þ He ask me why I don't get it when I scold him... LOL.. I say because he misbehave and deserve my scoldings!!! Lalalalala...

I just came back from TBP... Knn forgot to buy new lock for my room! Anyway, cashed out the cheque but soon it will be gone... 20th pay installments again.. Zzzz... Although lost all my winnings on Saturday, still ended this week with some blue figure.. dunno tonight got money take or not.....

Because of all the recent frustrations, I totally forgot about Ashlie's birthday!!!! OMG!! So sorry my dear!!! I sms him a belated msg the next day.. Sorry...

Anyway this one for both of you lah....

Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to darling~
Happy birthday to you~!