Haiz...

4th day at the new job already and I'm having "that" kind of feeling ever since the first day. "That" I mean dreading to go work!! Work start at 10pm and I would set alarm way early so I can take my time to prepare slowly, but actual fact is I always drag to the latest possible time to start preparing. Before I even start preparing, I would think of all kind of lies that I can use to excuse myself from work or at least report work later. Of course I didn't really do it. Haiz... PI work is tough. Though irregular, long hours, under the hot sun and in the rain, but I never dreaded as much as this job. The only encouragement that I have from this job is the possibility of earning more.

This new job is kind of competitive. When I was working for two days part time last month, the commission was calculated base on the total sales by my colleague and me. Then I started fulltime and I was told I'd be on my own. Zzz... I don't quite like the idea of individual sales because it's unfair for me when a lot of customers, especially the big spenders, would buy from the other girl because they already know her well. On the other hand I also understand that she would feel unfair if the commission is shared, since she always sells more than me. Reason for the company to do this because they want both of us to strive instead of taking turns to skive, thinking that the commission is shared. A little consolation that I just got to know yesterday - commission is 2% instead of 1%!! One out of a hundred is very insignificant, but two compared to one means two times!!!

I always think it is essential to maintain good relationship with colleagues, but I think its not exactly easy over here. Although I'm very poor now, I'm not the kind of person who would fuss over small amount of money. Which means I would choose harmonious over money, but others do not. Zzz... It's not like we have to fight for customers, but we need to act faster than each other. This is bad enough... The flower rings value in $20, $50, $100, $200, $500 and $1000. 2% commission is between $0.40 to $20, most often $0.40 to $1 because most customer would buy between $20 to $100 each time. Must I always act faster and be that kiasu to earn that $0.40 to $1??? If I don't, I'll earn nuts!! If I do, it will create tension between us. There's already unhappiness in me now because she is kinda doing it to me though she still treat me very friendly, of course she's the one smiling, because she's selling more than me!!!

I don't blame her totally. Why do I want to sell flowers since I kind of feel the job is degrading? Maybe she doesn't feel that way but I do!! I think it's degrading because I'm not a high school fall out or whatever, I have brains and I can find better job. But better job title doesn't give better pay, that's why I tried to part time at the pub and now I'm here!! She's also here for the same reason - make money!! Nothing wrong to be kiasu for her to rush for every $0.40 to $1. It actually adds up to quite a lot at the end of the night. I received $259 for that two days of part time!!

Luck also plays quite a big part. Today, I had quite bad luck. Customers who rejected my sale bought from her after I walked off less than 30 seconds. At times this happened because those customers know her better so did not buy from me purposely. But today it happened just because I didn't approach them the right time.. WTF?! Grrr... Today I did about 3k sales. She did 7k!!! Zzzz..... Anyway I just hope I'd be able to bring home at least 2.8k for this month, prove it worth for me to switch to this job. Then work on pulling my sales figure close to her, that way I should see around 5k of income each month!!!

By the way, I started another blog on Tumblr. Lol.. It's meant to be a bucket list. Not the usual kinds of "100 things I want to do before I die", but a list of all the things I want. From the little things I want to do or buy, places that I want to go and other wishes. My life list!! =)