Messy Mind....

Yes! Yes!! I am still alive lah!!! =)

MIA again! Didn't even post on my birthday!! How could I have not announce that Lucy and I went Bugis took some neoprints, brought me to Japanese fine dining and bought me a diamond ring for my birthday?! LOL... Well... The only reason was... Lazy lah! So, no pictures of the ring yet because I just sent in my camera for service yesterday.. No pictures of the neoprints as well because I am lazy to scan them now.. =X

Been putting all my interest in setting up my blogshop (to the extend I didn't even bother to punt!)... The layout is up.. Only waiting to throw in the products and pictures... The accessories stocks came... Even placed orders for apparels but not paid, and so not delivered yet... Just started finding something new to venture in my life and an unexpected offer came along...

Not very long ago an old friend approached Taine and offered him to go China and run a club... He was only given 2 days to decide where he took up the offer, gave up his rented room, forfeited his deposit, gave away his belongings, packed his luggage and fly off to China for good!!

Now, this same person came looking for me 3 days ago. Franck. He offered me a chance to join him in a business. Overseas... India.... To run a MLM business, upon success will bring very good money. To be paid a salary with lodging, transport, food and phones all taken care of. I won't say the salary is very attractive... About SGD$2k or a little more, but given the nature of the business this amount of salary is considered good and on top of that can still benefit from the MLM structure. Business support all provided and I just have to go and carry out and run it. And there is still an option for me to come back after 2 months if I really can't adapt.

My first thought of it - Given that I am jobless and slacking away now... yes it is a good offer and great opportunity for me to venture in... Or at least, I need to start having a job at some point of my life anyway! I've been procastinating to do so because I have no goals in life now and I can't seems to find something which I like to do. I have no problems looking for a job of course! Anybody can find a job... Anyhow find also got one office job with 1.5k salary where you work 5 days a week. Or even a retail job where you stand 10 hours a day with 2 days off a week and bring home $2.8k a month... But I find it boring... Now this offer came along which sounds interesting and a chance to make a lot of money!! Rather than rot at home I can go try it for the 2 months and be paid and come back if I don't like it! I've got nothing to lose isn't it???

On second thought - 2 months trial doesn't pose as an interesting catch to me, it's just a secondary option if things don't work for me... Even I am given a chance to change my mind later, I can't just go there without taking this thing seriously!? I don't want to go there blindly for 2 months and give up then come back wasting people's time and money... I am not greedy to go and just earn their 2 months salary... I have no problem finding a job here with a 2k salary. So, if I want to go, I am looking at the far future...

For many people, working overseas sounds like very fun because you can get out of your boring home and have freedom elsewhere. As a matter of fact, when such an offer comes to you, you will start to worry about leaving home, putting a stop to your current lifestyle. Whether you are leading a comfortable or miserable life, after all you have been so used to it in your own country, own home. Your friends, family, love ones, your physical assets, your pets, your room, your favourite hangout place, your favourite food or whatever bla bla... Be it going to India , Africa, USA or Japan. It's not about going to a 3rd world country or a developed country. It's about being away from home. But why am I worrying about all these?! I won't be going forever?! I get to come back every few months at least?! But my life will change totally!! Not like I can come home over the weekends, meet up with Lucy or other friends... =( What about my hamsters? =X

Another thing about this is... MLM!! I have NEVER been interested in MLM stuffs... I'm not saying their products, I mean the MLM idea itself. Even if someone were to offer me such opportunity in Singapore, I probably won't be interested at all!! Why am I still considering this offer to do it in India?! I don't know?! Why am I considering this?! At some moments of thought, MLM just turns me off. Because I am not interested in such business at all!! Can't imagine I'll be talking in a seminar imparting this idea to a hall of people even though I know how much income it can bring me... BUT now... Bcos I know how much income this thing can bring me, that's why I am considering it... Haiz.. My mind's in a mess...

Many people might think that I can't bear to leave here because of Lucy... Actually no... I will miss him for sure... But it's not because of him... It's because of many things that I mentioned above... Mainly because I'm uncomfortable of being away from Singapore and I'm not interested in MLM. It's not about Lucy and I can prove it. Of all the people I spoke to about this thing, they think it sounds like a good opportunity and told me to try. Even Lucy think I can go try, come to the worst it's only a contribution of 2 months. But still, I was feeling very uneasy and unrest. Then I spoke to my mum.. I spoke to her because in any way, I need her to agree for me to go... I can't just run away from home... After hearing me, my mother said to me that if I think there are good prospects, I can go.. She told me it's my decision.. Go try it if I want to... I don't know why.. After spoken to her, I felt relieved... Her reply made my heart settled.. Now, I am not so much worried about whether going or not going. I won't have any regrets for not going and missing this opportunity. And I am not so much worried about being away from home. So, its not about Lucy...

Though a more settled mind.... I still have to think... I still have to make a decision... Turning down the offer means my life will remain the same as it is now and nothing else to worry about, so this one no need to think.... I'm trying to think about what if I choose to go? What kind of life? Giving away my hamsters? Abandon my pc? Cannot see Lucy? Meet many bangali? Stay in a hotel there with who? Stay in a room alone or sharing with someone? What to bring with me over there? What about my blogshop and my stocks? (ok.. getting crappy with these stupid details...) Most importantly, will I grow interest with the job and do it well? My main thing is to earn that money! Am I able to make myself develop an interest in it and be successful with it?! People always say when you think you can, you can! But I know myself.. When I don't have interest for something... I won't even bother about it!! Of course when you can benefit from it, you will try... Over here, it's a chance to make a lot of money... But probably I'm not hungry enough for that money, or maybe because I have not see the money, that's why I am not motivated yet... If I want to see the money, I should go and try it... Hmmmm....

So what is the decision?!?! -_-"