Stressed....

It's really long before I last updated here... Now I don't know where I stopped... Zzz.. As if I am writing novels or wat...

Without updates here, you probably lost touch of my life... Same for me.. I also lost touch of myself.. Sianz...

All I can remember for the past week were many pissful moments, angriness, frustrations... I'm in distrait now.. Haiz.. By the way this is another week of blue to red... Damn... And Taine introduced me the 13 Card Poker online.. Another damn pile of red figures... Very depressed...

Before that was some unhappiness after a conversation with Steven.. He initiated the chat.. Haiz... Our relationship turning quite sour... Because he thinks that I am hindering Hanzi at work! Seriously, I don't even go to Geo nowadays! It's been many months that I frequent there.. Anyway don't want talk about it.. Just make me upset...

I got a bit sick of playing the Final Fantasy VII... =X I was near the ending already.. Just went around leveling my characters and my materias for the final battle.. The process bored me out.. So I finally decided to complete the game... Now trying on a new game, Thrilleville... Something like Theme Park...

Last Tuesday went to Ah Nee's wedding dinner... Quite boring for me... My close cousin's wedding but I was there like a nobody... Supposed to help out but I don't know what to help anyway... I didn't take any photos myself... The dinner photos not out yet..

Few weeks ago Hanzi told me she wants to go Hong Kong.. Zzz... For the sake of letting Junrong have a chance to take the plane... Wtf! Nowdadays kids so fortunate... Am I jealous? No no no! Not jealous about kids having good life! Just feel uneasy they are going holiday together! =(

He told her he's got no money.. She insist to use her just-enuff-savings to go... And she die die want to go!! She'd been suggesting since the last school holiday.. Went around travel agencies to enquire for last minute booking... They are travelling next week... Haiz... And he can't stop her... I DON'T UNDERSTAND!! He can actually reject the idea!! Not because I am jealous so I am angry over this.. But the fact is - HE REALLY REALLY NO CASH!! How to go holiday without money! 3k over for the travel package and what about spenditure!! And he is worrying over it! He can always postpone the plan!!!

He did nothing but to oblidge her... Even though she would be paying the travel package.. What about spendings over there?! 2 adults and 2 kids at Hong Kong and Disneyland! Zzzz... He said he have to oblidge... Because they hadn't travel for many years... And at least if he oblidge this time... He would have better excuse to go overseas with me next time.. If not she would be complaining that he always travel by himself and never bring them out.. Haiz... This I agree but then it's not the right time to oblidge now... Bcos REALLY NO MONEY!

Moreover they going next Tuesday! Nabeiz! Take away my precious time with him.. Tuesday leh! Kaoz!! Argh! Whatever lah! Fuck it!

Sianz lah!!

Haiz... So lag of details to blog... Partly because I am feeling lazy... Partly because I really don't have anything to blog.. Where got everyday so happening?! And whatever which is happening on me is mostly got to do with him pissing me off!!

Yesterday his offday.. Pissful again!!! Grrrr!!! Why he have to piss me off very very badly until in the end, he still got to admit his fault... Made his own life miserable, as well as mine...

Anyway Raymond is on leave this whole week... Was his birthday few days ago and so I jio him went out yesterday evening before Hanzi was able to come out... Went to Handle Bar along this Alexander Road... The food damn nice!!! The portions were big and the price is reasonably cheap... They don't add Service Charge, GST or CESS... Raymond kept saying the food is damn nice... And he enjoyed eating everything together with his long craved Miller beer.. LOL..

Took a few photos of the food lah.. But some craps lah.. Not meant to post here.. Were meant to show Hanzi and make him drool... We had lamb chops and beer butt chicken... And they have this dish call the Blossom Onion... They have a big onion sliced in machine and opens up like a lotus... Then deep fry and garnish.... U eat the "petals" like eating fries.... Taste nice.. Like onion rings..

After dinner went to Raymond's friend's pub at Duxton Hill for some beer and games of pool and waited for Hanzi to join us... That Hanzi took his own sweet time to come late! Zzz... Later we adjourned to another pub down Neil Road... There were people playing daidee at the bar counter... This idiot went to join them play! I was pissed!!! Knn!! So fucking like to gamble and you can just leave me and Raymond alone to join some strangers play! CCB! I gave him the scowl... He noticed I was angry but trying to act blur not knowing why... I didn't want to create a scene so I sent him SMS... "So fucking like to gamble might as well don't meet me!! Go and see where got funeral and join the strangers there to gamble lah!"

The pub closed shortly after and everybody went home leaving us alone... What's next? Quarrel lah! Details? I too sick of it to narrate! Ending? He apologise of course lah!!

Dentist Trip...

Recently having bad luck!!

Was it totally bad luck or I messed myself up... Haiz... I'm feeling a pretty lost now... =(

Yesterday went to the dentist... My stupid tooth... Think its the 2nd premolar on my right... Had decay and and chipped off with a tiny hole long ago.. I didn't bother about it until the hole wear off and become BIG hole.. Zzzz.. Friday evening it got worse and I needed to see the dentist ASAP... At the same time I need to fill another tooth which began to chhip off also..

At the dentist, I was recommended to do a root canal... This I already expected because that hole was very big and that tooth sometimes will ache badly... But I didn't expect to do it on the spot because I wasn't mentally prepared... I thought I wanted to go for a filling only.. Anyway proceeded with the root canal... Although not very pain but it was a terrible experience... Zzz..

The dentist knn never give signal before he start to inject the anesthesia... Nabeiz! So cruel! Then never bother to check if the anesthesia took effect and he wanted to start with the root canal! CCB! Poked the file right to my nerve and I jumped a bit and siam.. He knn asked me don't move.. I told him IT WAS NATURAL REACTION WAT! So he gave me another few jabs.... The process was painless after that.. But I could felt him digging my root vigourously as my whole head was shaking with him... Which I described to Taine as cleaning a decander or milk bottle with a brush.. Lol.. He was like.. Eeeeww!!

The dentist temporarily filled up the tooth with medicine and I shall go back in few weeks time to check if the root canal was done properly before I can have a proper filling for the tooth.. Haiz.. $260 gone.. SIANZ...

The anesthesia on my facial skin and lips lasted like almost 4 hours.. Knn.. Couldn't even drink water or smoke properly... One side of my upper lip was numb and I couldn't feel and control the muscle well.. LOL... I told Gross I went dentist and he was surprised and thought I so discipline and visit dentist... Of course no lah!! If not for that hole!! Zzzz

I am still on my Final Fantasy VII... Now going around doing optional quests... Went Ancient Forest and doing chocobos breeding!!! Already got my black chocobo and wonderful chocobo.. Waiting for them to mature and mate them for a gold chocobo... Then will go Battle Arena at Gold Saucer to get my Hanzi's final break limit.. So many things to do.. I think I can spend my PSP on Final Fantasy VII forever!! Play over and over again!!

Ok go check on my chocobo now.. Bye~

Updates!!

So lag of posts nowadays.. Been busy with my Final Fantasy VII on PSP... Now got my airship Highwind liao!! Which means Aeris mati liao... Lucky never name her as myself.. The first time I played this game I named Aeris myself.. Knn played halfway the story had to make her die! Zzz... This time I keep her name original (though I ever thought of naming her as his wife.. =X)

Anyway, about my Final Fantasy VII:
The other day was at Gold Saucer then Hanzi had a date with Heidi... (I named Tifa myself...) Sibeh funny.. Lol... Went to the Event Square and someone announced we were the 100th couple and shall join them and act on stage.. The stage act was about an evil dragon kidnapped Princess Heidi and the Hero Hanzi supposed to save her.. The King provided aid to Hero Hanzi which he can choose between a knight or a wizard.. I chose to talk to the wizard.. The wizard asked the Hero Hanzi what he would like to know.. And then two options where given..
1)The Evil Dragon's Weaknesses
2)The Princess Measurements
WAHAHAHAHA!! I chose the 2nd one.. Cannot stop laughing.. And everyone was stunned but the narrator continued the story with the dragon appearing with Princess Heidi as hostage.. And the dragon asked "Who is your enemy?".. Again given some options..
1)Evil Dragon
2)The Knight
3)The King
And I chose the king for fun.. LOL.. At this point, Heidi got angry and went over to give Hanzi a tight slap saying he was not serious about the act.. Then Heidi kicked the dragon and sent him flying away... And the narrator said "Wow! What an unusually strong Princess! And the story end happily ever after!" Wahahahaha!! This is so fucking funny!

Ok... And my real life:
Many frustrating, pissful and hurtful moment the last weekend.. Grrr.. Last week lost money.. Didn't know he actually lost more than me!! I thought he was doing fine... He kept it from me that he lost on horses.. Zzz.. I always told him not to bother too much on horses.. He hate to hear me nag, that's why he didn't tell me.. Until he lost so much that he got cranky with his behaviour and pissed me off!

I am having less and less patience to wait for him everyday... Sometimes it's not literally wait.. but I meant like we get so little opportunity to spend time together.. I have to wait for Mondays he get to come out early before work and we can go for shopping or dinner (but he always late and the shops or my fav food chain close).. I have to wait for Tuesdays when he is off and able to spend more continous hours with me (but he comes out so late we are left with almost no choice of place to go).. I have to wait and hope that he might have time to meet me on Thursday before he go work so that we can have dinner or shopping (but again he always come out the time when everywhere is almost closing and he had to go work soon)... Zzzz..

And I had to wait everyday to get to speak with him only when he leave home for work or going home after work!!! On his way to work sometimes we'll get to chat till he reach work place (but usually he only talk about his own interest like soccer and horse.. Zzz) Other times when Steven fetch him to work then it's inconvenient for him to chat with me... When he reach work place he'll tell me that he call me back later... Sometimes at work he could make time for a stick of ciggy and call me! But he rather spend the time to login GPRS for a bet! And he told me he'll call back!! And I always wait from 11PM until 5AM which I had to call him myself! Sickening! Why can't he just call back and say something knowing that I AM WAITING!!!

And this last weekend same thing happened I was so pissed!! Quarrelled and he hurt me very badly that I had to become a real meanie! He scolded me vulgar and made a statement really got me very mad.. Said something like it's my own will to wait and it's none of his business! WTF?! He calls himself a man?! Say such things to me taking me for granted!! I was so damn hurt and pissed I made him apologised and I said it wasn't enough.. Come on! No "sorry" would compensate for the things that he said to hurt me!

There are words and actions that cannot be said or done no matter what circumstances! How can he say such things to hurt me just because he is in a bad mood! I wasn't very angry about him scolding me KNNBCCB... I can understand when a person is very pissed they just shout vulgarities... But I cannot accept the other things he said that hurt me very badly... I expect some EQ ok! Zzzz

As usual, Monday he will meet me for dinner... He volunteer to bring me shopping.. xD.. Compensation ah? Anyway, week before I told him I needed to get a dress for Ah Nee's wedding dinner.. Knn my father instructed me to wear dress for that day.. Kaoz.. He say go and buy one if I don't have! WTF?! And so we went to Bugis... Shopped around in the 木 boutique. He very well behaved... Showed enthusiasm and seriousness in browsing for a piece of dress for me.. LOL... Actually I didn't want to go shopping knowing that he lost so much... But he offered, so why not? Since I had no better idea of where to go anyway... Spent $200 over there because the salesgirl encouraged him to spend that amount for a membership card... I felt bad for spending that money at such a time.. I don't know why he didn't hesitate at all...

Tuesday I wasn't feeling well and at first I thought I wouldn't be meeting him.. In the end still met him at 4AM... Dispute again! Zzz... I don't know it's because I got impatient or he is really that idiotic... I don't want to describe too much details what happened that night.. Zzz.. So sickening... Anyway was a happy and lovely ending...

Wednesday evening he came out early to meet me!! Of course not purely for me.. He needed to collect money from his kaki.. Went shopping at Orchard.. Hehehe.. Bought me two handbags... Went for foot massage because we were both SOO TIRED!! I didn't sleep the day before.. Been missing a lot of sleep last few days.. Foot massage was shiok.. He signed for a package of 6 sessions... (Don't know why he still spend this money...) So, we shall be going back for more massage again..

Because I missed my sleep.. My body clock has been adjusted a bit.. Last few days been turning in early and waking up at 5AM plus in the morning! Kaoz... And I start to get very sleepy by dinner time... Like now.. Sleepy... But will be meeting him.. He say will come out to meet me today.. These few days I complained cold because it has been raining.. He wanna bring me buy an extra quilt.. Hehehe.. Going Ikea later... Omg.. Meatballs!! I am coming!!

Sian Sian SIANZ!

Dunno wtf is wrong with my browser... That day after Kenn85 came to ask me about why he couldn't view a page with his Firefox.. Then I tried to visit that page with my Firefox.. Installed a XML script from that site and now I cannot view some pages properly.. Zzzz...

Very moody... Sensing a few sway events about to happen to me... One already happened.. Last night I got red numbers... Zzz.. Was jalaning while playing PSP and a few people MSN me at the same time... Xta had some arguement with Tri and they got me in for some sort of "No Prize Questionaire"... Then I was feeling moody because something happened that made me frustrated because I had to chase after someone for money on behalf of another person... It's not about the trouble helping to chase the money.. It's the process of going after people for money especially when you sense that person is not going to pay you but keep delaying you day after day with many craps! Don't fucking take me as an idiot! You want to tell a lie also use your brain!

Anyway I should have felt it, yet I still bet... Bad mood always bring red numbers.. Sianz..

Been playing Final Fantasy VII still at Disc One... Got my buggy from the Gold Saucer liao.. Now just reached Cosmo Canyon...

Nothing to blog about leh.. Expect me to talk about the details of the things I went through in the game meh?!

Yoo Hoo!

Oops... Sibeh long never update my blog!!! Eversince came back from Bangkok.. Damn upset with the custom thing therefore no mood to blog liao.. =( Also spent the weekend trying to recoup the custom fine money... Got back 3 quarter during the weekend... This week doing well can take back ALL liao! =)

The days after I came back from Bangkok.. Probably because of that bloody thing.. I slept everyday.. I mean not 24hours lah.. But I slept very long hours everyday.. Lazing around... Spent a lot of time playing Final Fantasy VII on my PSP (now at Mount Corel).. So happy that PSP can play PSX games.. xD

Xta just came onto MSN and complained that I never update my blog.. I told her no mood and lazy.. And nothing to blog about.. She suggested blog about Tuesday.. Knn!! Tuesday very tulanz day lor!! His offday always give me CRAPS!! Anyway I cannot remember the details of what happened already.. And I'm not interested to try to recall...

I was supposed to blog about my Bangkok trip.. Actually nothing much over there.. It was just shopping, shopping and shopping.. Only took a little pictures...

Ok.. Trying to bore you with some plane view..


Our room in Novotel Bangkok


Wtf! Toilet also take picture?! xD


At Siam Square.. On the way back to hotel...


Probably the ONLY time we REALLY try to take pics


Might as well take one for him also...


If Xta is here.. She sure dine here..


Lunching at a pizza chain...


He say the view look like our Lucky Plaza...


Kaoz.. "She" say go overseas dun wear Rolex.. So Junrong offer his BABY-G


Tom Yam Pizza!!!! Taste quite nice!


Told him to pose a yummy look.. Zzz.. He look sick..


Kaoz! Look at how he sat at the restaurant!


On a tuk tuk ride.. Very windy..


Snapped many attempts.. His eyes always closed.. Zzz


Dance Fever Disco...


Forgot who took this shot for us liao...

That's about all.. Got some other crap pics which I didn't post... Don't worry.. I got nothing to hide.. They are craps really.. LOL.. I go play my Final Fantasy liao... (Going to Gold Saucer now..)