Stressed....

It's really long before I last updated here... Now I don't know where I stopped... Zzz.. As if I am writing novels or wat...

Without updates here, you probably lost touch of my life... Same for me.. I also lost touch of myself.. Sianz...

All I can remember for the past week were many pissful moments, angriness, frustrations... I'm in distrait now.. Haiz.. By the way this is another week of blue to red... Damn... And Taine introduced me the 13 Card Poker online.. Another damn pile of red figures... Very depressed...

Before that was some unhappiness after a conversation with Steven.. He initiated the chat.. Haiz... Our relationship turning quite sour... Because he thinks that I am hindering Hanzi at work! Seriously, I don't even go to Geo nowadays! It's been many months that I frequent there.. Anyway don't want talk about it.. Just make me upset...

I got a bit sick of playing the Final Fantasy VII... =X I was near the ending already.. Just went around leveling my characters and my materias for the final battle.. The process bored me out.. So I finally decided to complete the game... Now trying on a new game, Thrilleville... Something like Theme Park...

Last Tuesday went to Ah Nee's wedding dinner... Quite boring for me... My close cousin's wedding but I was there like a nobody... Supposed to help out but I don't know what to help anyway... I didn't take any photos myself... The dinner photos not out yet..

Few weeks ago Hanzi told me she wants to go Hong Kong.. Zzz... For the sake of letting Junrong have a chance to take the plane... Wtf! Nowdadays kids so fortunate... Am I jealous? No no no! Not jealous about kids having good life! Just feel uneasy they are going holiday together! =(

He told her he's got no money.. She insist to use her just-enuff-savings to go... And she die die want to go!! She'd been suggesting since the last school holiday.. Went around travel agencies to enquire for last minute booking... They are travelling next week... Haiz... And he can't stop her... I DON'T UNDERSTAND!! He can actually reject the idea!! Not because I am jealous so I am angry over this.. But the fact is - HE REALLY REALLY NO CASH!! How to go holiday without money! 3k over for the travel package and what about spenditure!! And he is worrying over it! He can always postpone the plan!!!

He did nothing but to oblidge her... Even though she would be paying the travel package.. What about spendings over there?! 2 adults and 2 kids at Hong Kong and Disneyland! Zzzz... He said he have to oblidge... Because they hadn't travel for many years... And at least if he oblidge this time... He would have better excuse to go overseas with me next time.. If not she would be complaining that he always travel by himself and never bring them out.. Haiz... This I agree but then it's not the right time to oblidge now... Bcos REALLY NO MONEY!

Moreover they going next Tuesday! Nabeiz! Take away my precious time with him.. Tuesday leh! Kaoz!! Argh! Whatever lah! Fuck it!